How you do anything is how you do everything
Photo Credit Jody Goodwin
You want to know a secret? I’m actually kind of shy.
I know, I know… you’re thinking, YOU? SHY? Bahahahahaha!!!
But it’s true.
One of my sneaky tools, my defence mechanisms, the way in which I avoid true vulnerability at all costs, is what I call “smoke and mirrors”.
What this looks like is I offer up some really juicy personal information, like about 90% of the truth of my experience, so that it looks like I am being excruciatingly vulnerable and transparent, but in reality I get to hang on to the last 10%. I get to avoid being truly vulnerable.
As a whole, my life has changed pretty dramatically since I returned from Peru in October. My living situation, my relationships, my body, my work, even my habits. I have changed and therefore the way I do things has changed. I have started to live and share from that 10%. The place where I feel oh-so-uncomfortable. The place that I usually keep hidden at all costs. You have experienced this directly if you have been following and reading this blog.
I love the above quote, and I wanted to capture in a general sense, the change or movement that I have experienced in the past four months. I have been reflecting on the ways in which I “do” things: make a meal, get ready in the morning, make love, workout, practice yoga, even coaching.
I need to be in control became I allow myself to surrender.
I “have to” became I “want to.”
I need to be in control of my pleasure became I am open to receiving pleasure.
What was once prescribed, regimented, expected, & predictable became wild, living, breathing, & evolving.
I was closed & hidden and I became open & exposed.
My masculine, dominant energy became balanced by my soft, feminine energy.
An expectation of myself to know everything became getting comfortable with uncertainty.
My need to navigate & lead became a willingness to follow & trust.
Something that was once rushed became something that could take all day.
There are rules became there are no rules.
What was once “serious” became playful & fun.
How do you “do” things?
The Serene One 